Makes sense...

Should've payed attention to this lyrics before.

"Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant

I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away"

Missing is what I do most and best, lately.

Oh, pretty girl, I can tell you SO many things you're worth for.

And it's true: answer, many times, takes a long way so you can find it.

But no matter what are the answers you find in Life, one thing I can tell you:

If ever you need someone you can count on, someone you can trust, you already found this person. As for you're the one person worth Loving for. You're the beauty in Life worth living and dying for.

And soon you're gonna leave, but you're something worth waiting for. And, in a certain way, I'll be waiting on your comeback, curious to see what future holds for each one of us. And about the traumas... well, they can be used for good, for teaching. And with patience and time they will all go away and become lessons we learned. We all make mistakes, but they are part of our lifeline.

Well, if there's one thing in my life worth looking for, worth living and dying for... if there's one thing in this very Life worth Loving and waiting and wishing for, this one thing for me is you, beautiful girl. And I don't know what you've been missing so much to say it's your new name, but I can tell you this: missing is what I've been doing most and best for the past couple of months.

At least now I have your smell all over my pillow for another day. And that is priceless.

The Adventure

"I want to have the same last dream again
The one where I wake up, and I'm alive
Just as the four walls close me within
My eyes are open up with pure sunlight
I'm the first to know, my dearest friends
Even if your hope has burned with time
Anything thats dead shall be regrown
And your vicious pain, your warning sign, you will be fine

Hey oh, here I am
And here we go, life's waiting to begin

Any type of love, it will be shown
Like every single tree, reach for the sky
If you're going to fall, I'll let you know
That I will pick you up, like you for I
I felt this thing, I can't replace
Where everyone was working for this goal
where all the children left without a trace
Only to come back as pure as gold to recite this all

Hey oh, Here I am
And here we go, life's waiting to begin
Tonight, hey oh, here I am
And here we go, life's waiting to begin
Tonight,hey oh, here I am
And here we go, life's waiting to begin

I cannot live, I can't breathe, unless you do this with me

Hello, here I am (do this with me)
And here we go, life's waiting to begin (do this with me)
Hello, here I am (do this with me)
And here we go, life's waiting to begin
Life's waiting to begin"

Such a beautiful Bad Mood.

You're such a strange girl, I think you come from another world...

Soon you're gonna leave, so leave us one more weekend!

Take the pain out of Love and then Love won't exist.

And I'm so very, very sorry.

Rumors are saying... well, words spread.

I see you move on fast. That it's easy for you to leave it all behind.

Well, rumors are saying you're better off without me.

That you are happier now and having much more fun.

I find no words at all to rhyme with my future lines.

But the future words I'll write will be an exposed part of my sick mind.

Oh, and words spread... and they are all saying that you are in love again.

It's good to hear it, too bad I didn't hear it from you.

It's good, because it's been a long time you weren't in love with me.

I tried it so hard, but no matter what, I was the only one to fall and fall and fall.

Maybe now you found the one who'll make you feel the same way I do for you.

Shaking, dreaming, wishing, planning... waiting on a sudden phone call

Or a simple "I miss you" said out loud.

Maybe now you'll understand how it feels to want to make a late call

Or to write a random email, just to say "I Love you so" in the middle of the day.

I hope this is the person that will make you feel young and dumb.

The very one that you can smell on your pillow for days.

And if he/she is not this special one, I hope you'll find it someday.

And maybe you'll understand how it is to feel miserable, but happy.

Lost in thoughts, but found on this person's arm.

Oh, I tried so hard to make you feel this way.

It's just I wasn't good enough for you. Or I didn't know how to try my best.

Still, rumors are saying you're having this beautiful chance.

Embrace it. Maybe then you'll understand the way I feel for you. The way I feel today.

One More Weekend

I've said too much already.

I've tried a lot, cried rivers, been down enough to face the sidewalk.

Still, I can still taste blood in my mouth, from trying to speak no longer.

And every day of silence is a day of huge pain growing inside of me, crazy thoughts taking over and desperate inside my brain.

I've seen people, been with people... I also had my "drink more than you ever did" time, just to try and let her go.

What a shame, I was trying to do something I know that is impossible for me. It's only impossible because it was true. It is true and will ever be. From where I come from, True Love never becomes part of the past. It never really goes away. Just as the memories that keep me awake... they won't ever fade away. Memories, just as my Love, remains.

I've heard all those sad songs, seen many beautiful movies... I've done a lot to show the world my pain. To share my pain with the world, on a desperate effort to survive, believing I could never deal with all this hurt alone. It's time to live life now. It's time to change, to focus on a future that belongs to me and no one else.

For such a long time of my life I planned a future and all my dreams and ambitions to share it with some one else that I don't even know how is it to think of a future that will be only mine.

If she's doing it so well, why couldn't I? It hurts to see that she could do it so quickly, so fast. I've gotta be honest: had I seen her as I am, I don't think I'd bee so envy and jealous like I am right now. Still, you can't never expect people to truly Love you, nor Love you the same way you Love them. It's not I think she didn't Love me or so... but how can some let Love go so easily, quickly, loudly?! How can one be so strong and cold after such a long time? I really don't know what hurts more: thinking I've never been Loved or that she could only be so strong because everything we had was such a bad thing, such a waste of time... for her, of course.

I don't regret my past. Not a day. It made me who I am. And I 'd do this all over again. All the fights, gifts, tears, laughters, smiles, kisses... oh, if ever anyone ask me if I am happy I'd have to say yes. I am happy for I could Love one with all my heart and expectations. I could Love a girl in a way I doubt many people can Love. With pure heart, with shaking hands and blinking eyes. I am happy. It's just that, now, I'm miserable and in pain. But, if being miserable is what takes for me to Love her, I'll be miserable. And this pain... well, I'll get used to it someday. It's only here because I'm not with her. It's here because we are, now, 2 months apart.

If only I had that straight punch, to warn me it was about to end, I'd do it all differently. I'd change everything in me that had to be changed. I'd do anything to make it work. And it gives me HELL to see other couples on close situation, but with only one person trying... and trying and trying... and being honest with a possible end to the other and the other clearly doing nothing... it gives me hell because I wish I had this obvious warn...

Well, as I said, it's time to move on with life. The sad songs will be playing on my iPhone and car stereo. Love and beautiful movies will be playing on my Blu Ray. I'll meet people and be with them. I'll waste my time on things I like and things I don't like. I'll be thinking of her and remembering everything we had. I'll cry because of that. But I'll live my life, I'll go on with it. Maybe, on life's crazy paths, we'll meet again. Renewed, refreshed... if not for one another, for ourselves.

As for what I have to say for myself:

No matter what your words might be, no matter how easy it is for you to get over, no matter how much suffering I'm into and how long it takes to go away, "You won't change the way I feel, because I Love you". "Oh, oh, oh, I Love you SO"! My feelings for you were always real and they don't depend on you to exist. They are here and forever will, that's what I promise you.

"Somewhere hiding underneath
Kickin' off covers while you sleep
Soon you're gonna leave
So leave us one more weekend

You've got all the friends you need
Bad tattoos and worse id's
You feel alive
Do you feel alive?

You'll go off
You'll forget
You'll grow out
Of hanging from the edges
Breaking off the past
You'll know when to move up
You'll know when to take all
The right chances
Never looking back

Somewhere hiding underneath
Runnin' around these empty streets
Do you think you're better off dead
Better off dead
Better alive than here?

You've got all the friends you need
Bad tattoos and worse ideas
You feel alive
Do you feel alive?

You'll go off
You'll forget
You'll grow out
Of hanging from the edges
Breaking off the past
You'll know when to move up
You'll know when to take all
The right chances
Never looking back

You think the time we spent
Was all wasted
Sleepwalking through every morning
We took for granted
Maybe this time we spent
Was all wasted
We'll let it go
I'll let you go

You'll go off
You'll forget
You'll grow out
Of hanging from the edges
Breaking off the past
You'll know when to move up
You'll know when to take all
The right chances
Never looking back

We are half alive
And that's a miracle
Now we don't belong
To anyone at all
We are half alive
And that's a miracle
Now we don't belong
To anyone at all

Somewhere hiding underneath
Kicking off covers while you sleep
You feel alive"

Everything We Had

"You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd never known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there, longer there.

You saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.
And I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had.
Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had...

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall."

Not Now

Why does it feel like Blink-182 always has some words to comfort me?

"Come here, please hold my hand, Lord, now

Help me, I'm scared please show me how
To fight this, God has a master plan
And I guess, I am in his demand

Please save me, this time I cannot run
And I'll see, you when this is done
And now I, have come to realize
That you are, the one who's left behind

Please stay untill I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here waiting

I see, the light it feels good
And I'll come, back soon just like you would
It's use less, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss

Please stay untill I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here waiting
And take my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting"

Lover's Thirst.

For eternity I want to make you smile.

And, whenever you cry, I want to be there,

And with the most warm and intense kiss in our lives

I'll drink all those salty tears dropping from your eyes.

A Letter To Elise

"Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you say

I just can't stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you do
I know I'll never really get inside of you
To make your eyes catch fire
The way they should
The way the blue could pull me in
If they only would
If they only would
At least I'd lose this sense of sensing something else
That hides away
But you and me
We're worlds to part
With aching looks and breaking hearts
And all the prayers your hands can make
And I'll just take as much as you can throw
And then I'll throw it all away
And then I'll throw it all away
Like throwing faces at the sky
Like throwing arms round
Yesterday
I stood and stared
Wide-eyed in front of you
And the face I saw looked back
The way I wanted to
But I just can't hold my tears away
The way you do

Elise believe I never wanted this
I thought this time I'd keep all of my promises
I thought you were the girl I always dreamed about
But I let the dream go
And the promises broke
And the make-believe ran out...

So Elise
It doesn't matter what you say
I just can't stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

And every time I try to pick it up
Like falling sand
As fast as I pick it up
It runs away through my clutching hands
But there's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else
I can really do
At all..."

Alguns covers são interessantíssimos: eles conseguem superar a versão original da música. Alguns exemplos (na minha opinião): "With A Little Help From My Friends", do Joe Cocker, é melhor do que a dos Beatles... O Mesmo acontece com outra música deles "Come Together" que, para mim, a versão do Aerosmith é melhor do que a Original.

Agora, uma obra-prima que conseguiu ser aprimorada, é "A Letter To Elise", do The Cure. Na versão Original a música é fantástica... uma das letras mais belas que tem... ainda assim, a versão do Blink 182 pra essa música...

It's been long enough.

It’s been way too long now.

Long enough for me to suffer enough.

Don’t you think it’s been time enough?

Isn’t it enough for you to forgive the things that hurt us?

The mistakes we made cause me pain no more

And the only pain I feel is because I miss you.

I’ve had enough suffering to know

That being away from you is not what I need.

I’ve had so much suffering, that every day I live without you

Is another day I wish I could be with you.

Oh, darling, I know we belong together

And I fear not what future may hold as long as I’m with you.

And I know things can be good enough without you.

Still, I never wanted good enough, I want what’s best and better.

And that I can only reach with you.

I’ve had time enough without you.

And shed tears enough missing you.

Don’t you miss me?

Don’t you think you had time enough away from me?

I’ve had enough suffering to know

That being away from you is not what I need.

I’ve had so much suffering, that every day I live without you

Is another day I wish I could be with you.

Maybe all we need is a little more Love.

Maybe it’s time for us to believe we can do better.

The mistakes we made are part of the past

And we should leave them right where they belong: in the past.

I’ve learned so much away from you

That I want to practice what I learned with you.

What if we take this as a new beginning?

What if we take this as our new beginning?

I’ve had time enough

I’ve had enough suffering

I’ve missed you enough.

My Dearest

"My Dearest,
I've missed you very, very much since that last night we were together,
and will hold that night specially in my memories years to come.
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately.
I've read your letter through at least four times,
and will probably read it more times before I'm through.
I've been sitting here, looking at your picture,
and getting more homesick every minute.
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of,
except of course, you yourself.
I keep thinking of you darling,
keep wishing I could be home with you.
I want to leave in the worst possible way
so I can come home to see you but,
things don't look so good on that subject.
This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone i guess,
I've never been so lonesome in my life as i am right now.
I'm completely lost without you darling.
I never realised i could miss any one person so much,
I just hope it wont be too much longer until im able to be with you again
and live a sane and normal life..."

Therapy

"My ship went down in a sea of sound
When I woke up alone I had everything
A handful of moments I wished I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade
In a city of fools I was careful and cool
But they tore me apart like a hurricane.
A handful of moments
I wish I could change but I was carried away

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery.

My lungs gave out
As i faced the crowd
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous
I'm flesh and bone
I'm a rolling stone
and the experts say I'm delirious

Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to
They're better off without you
(They're better off without you)
Arrogant boy, cause a scene like you're supposed to
They'll fall asleep without you
You're lucky if your memory remains

Therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
And you can choke on your misery."

International You Day

"i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adored
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more

i'm coming home today
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

my life is incomplete
my rights are absolutely wrong
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone"