What about me?

Well, there are not enough sad songs to explain the way I feel, still, here's a little bit of what's going on with my life:

So many weird things happened these past few days. Nothing of what I wanted really happened. Starting with me being away from Brazil for a little while. Instead, from late call, I'm on a graduated course. Amazing. I was expecting it for 2010 only, but I could actually start it this year. Great, hun?! =)

Well, it feels really good, because it's just like I'm trying to live life once again. I'm starting to be good to myself. There's still air outside for me to breath, and I'm slowly trying to take deep breaths. I'm also running. A LOT! SPOOOORTS!!! Hahaha... guess I found something that clears my head for 20 minutes or so.

Anyway, I had the most odd weekend I ever thought I'd have. First, I went to a party, as Edward Scissorhands. I thought it wouldn't be any original, but then, it happened that my costume and make up (which I did all by myself) were a HUGE success! Beautiful. Hahaha. And funny! At the party I had SO MANY BEERS! I don't think I ever drank as many beers as I did that night. It was unbelievable! I had beers enough to have no idea at all of how many beers I had. Anyway, the party was pretty good. It happens that it ended on a way I would never, ever, ever expect. And from all of what happened about it, I got to myself so many beautiful mental pictures. The smell on my pillow is gone, now, but all the pictures are well framed on my mind and heart. All I got do is close my eyes.

Well, my life has been just like that. Trying to party only on weekends, looking for things to make the days go by, waiting on tomorrow to come and possibly brings new hopes for me...

The sad thing is: The bad thing about live your life waiting on Tomorrow is that it makes harder to live the Today.

Oh, and one thing I've heard: you can only be good to someone else if you can be good to yourself.

My Love, I'll be as good as I can to me and I'll even try to reach my best. But how can I be my best when the best part of me is gone? Guess it's something I'll have to figure out on my own.

Still, I'll be waiting to see what future holds.

PS: I'm only 10 days from my graduation party. I'm sooo excited. ^^-b A few people will be missing, though. Some of them I'm sure they'll be watching wherever they are. One of them...